"Because you are a good heart"

Because you are a good hearts

Here's the thing about people with good hearts,

They give you excuses when you don't explain yourself,

They accept apologies you don't give,

They see the best in you when you don't need them to,

At worst, they lift you up even if it means putting their priorities aside,

The word "busy" does not exist in their dictionary,

They make time, even when you don't,

and you wonder why they're the most sensitive people?

You wonder why they're the most caring people?

You wonder why they are willing to give so much of themselves with no expectation in return?

You wonder why their existence is not so essential to your well-being?

It's because they don't make you work hard for the attention they give you,

They accept the love they think they've earned,

and you accept the love you think you're entitled to,

Let me tell you something,

Fear the day when a good heart gives up on you,\Our skies don't become gray out of nowhere,

Our sunshine does not allow the darkness to take over for no reason,

A heart does not turn cold unless it's been treated with coldness for a while

I guess I am one of the those that have a good hearts

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(The real article written by unknown but I modified into my-style poem as to fit the my life story)

The words bit by bit are so worthwhile to share. If you ever wonder why I am behaving that way, I still don't no the answer. I just follow my heart though my mind against the action. Perhaps, may be above article will cleared it for you. >_<

Review Korean Drama: My Father is Strange

Assalammualaikum and selamat petang, k-poppers sekalian!

Drama My Father is Strange ni bukan meletup macam Descendent of the Sun tu, rating dia pun around 20-30% jek! Aku tau pon sebab colleague aku tgk YouTube sambil gelak-gelak. Satu ketidakpuasan bila orang lain tgk cerita sambil gelak-gelak ni, mesti aku sibuk nak follow jugak.

Drama ni mengisahkan sebuah keluarga yang biasa-biasa taraf hidupnya, parent yang mempunyai seorang anak lelaki dan tiga anak perempuan. Bapanya merupakan pemilik dan tukang masak restoran (kecil) Father's Snack yang kadang-kadang dibantu oleh isteri serta anak-anaknya. Isterinya merupakan ex-nurse sebelum menjadi fully house wife. Anak sulung merupakan anak lelaki jobless, 5 kali gagal amek entrance exam utk jadi gov servant, anak kedua merupakan seorang yang highly well paid lawyer, anak ketiga merupakan seorang intern di syarikat entertainment and yang last merupakan seorang instructor yoga. 

Di bawah merupakan link utk drama tersebut. Worth to watch:

Kshowonline My Father is Strange

 

 

Watak anak kedua(lawyer)- her flaws, perfection and complexity banyak reflected to myself, that’s why i said this drama is real. Banyak jugak karekter lain yang reflect karekter family ak yang lain.

Apa yang membuatkan aku rasa jalan cerita ni menarik sebab ia mengetengahkan kehidupan sebenar sebuah keluarga yang sederhana taraf hidupnya tinggal tinggal bersama di bandar metropolitan yang ikatan keluarganya sangat utuh dalam menempuhi pelbagai cabaran seperti yang kita selalu hadapi hari-hari. Pendek kata, jalan cerita ni REALISTIK dan sedikit sebanyak mengingatkan aku dengan keluarga aku sebab aku datang dari family yang sederhana, mahukan sesuatu kena berusaha lebih bukan keluarga 'silver spoon' bahkan kebanyakan watak yang dimainkan dalam drama ni juga memberi reflect kepada karekter kami sekeluarga.

Pemacu tunggak dalam utuhnya semangat kekeluargaan dalam drama ini adalah ibu bapa sebagai nakhoda yang mencorakkan masa depan anak-anak. Pentingnya ibu bapa yang cool at the same time tegas yang prihatin dengan masalah anak-anak untuk mewujudkan persekitaran yang positif dan sifat kasih sayang sesama keluarga. Apa masalah yang mereka hadapi akan dibincangkan bersama melibatkan semua ahli keluarga, "Together we are strong". Tapi malangnya, nilai kekeluargaan ini semakin pudar dan perhatian ibu bapa lebih beralih kepada kebendaan melebih perhatian terhadap anak-anak yang membesar. Aku masih lagi mendokong bahawa pendidikan bermula dari rumah. Jadi ibu bapa jangan sewenang-wenangnya menunding jari pada orang lain sekiranya anak melakukan kesalahan. Tilik dari mana silap didikan yang diberikan oleh kalian di rumah.

Kenapa my father is strange, it is because..

“ A father is neither an anchor to hold us back nor a sail to take us there but a guiding light whose love shows us the way”.

Travelog: Kota Kinabalu-Kundasang Trip

Assalammualaikum  and Selamat bercuti, geng!

Actually memang lama berkehendak nak share travelog ngan pembaca sekalian, tapi masa selalu mencemburui aku untuk menaip banyak. Travelog kali ni berjaya di update sebab ada geng dalam percutian kali ni yang a very detailed person, she's the one who did a well written draft vacation and booked all accommodations, May nama dia then dia swuh geng yang lain check and suggest to upgrade. 

As for me, ini adalah kali ke-3 aku kat KK dan trip kali ni adalah trip bersama Geng Lima Bunga without Dibah (May, Aku, Ina and Siti)yang juga merupakan tribute utk percutian yang pertama kami dalam Malaysia bersama-sama naik flight and mungkin yang terakhir sebelum beliau mendirikan rumah tangga Mac tahun depan, Insya Allah. Ini juga adalah pertama kali beliau bersua muka dengan tunang beliau pertama kali selepas bergelar tunang, "how sweet was that?" hehehe. 

Okay, I would like to make it simple and short about our trip itinerary:

9 Ogos 2017

1. Sampai kk (7.30pm)

2. Makan kt area todak (banyak gerai, harga lebih kurang sama. untuk masakan seafood dowg ok tp utk ikan mmg tak kena selera kami sangat)

3. Check in hotel iskandar (bersih dan selesa:4/5)

Seafood kat Todak ni murah. Tapi Lobster dia mahal sikit, nak murah area Tawau (jauh la).

Orang KK panggil sayap ayam madu ( kepak ayam), feymes kat sini.

10 Ogos 2017

1. Breakfast 7.30am

2. Bertolak ke jeti 8 a.m untuk ke pulau (3 pulau : manukan, memutik, sapi. Rekemen beli tiket kat kaunter 10-Island Hop Express. Kalau nak buat aktiviti lain spt Sea walking, zipline and so on survey terus kat kaunter2 yg ada sebab kat pulau nnti lagi mahal harga dowg offer)

3. Balik ke hotel (rest, solat zohor & asar)

4. Makan lokan bakar dan puding kelapa (ptg - if sempat bergantung pada waktu balik dari pulau)

5. Malam makan di rumah member 9 p.m

6. Balik ke hotel (rest, solat maghrib dan isyak)

Ada banyak kaunter untuk kowg pilih pakej Island hop nnti. For suggestion beli kat kaunter 10 tu (Island Hop Express) setakat kami survey tu yang paling baik harga dowg offer. 

1st Island Hop: Pulau Sapi. Laut dia memang cantik and jernih.

Agak disappointed jugak sebab coral and ikan dia dah tak cantik unlike tahun 2012 my last visit. Musnah sebab sea bleaching and barangkali sebab ramai sangat pengunjung kat tepi. But dont worry you can find the best coral view kat tengah2 sedikit, kalau leh snorkeling ke tengah tu berteman la ye atau upah guider.

 Sewa set snorkeling :RM15 bersama life jacket. So siapa yang tak reti berenang jangan risau, sure kan floating punya.

 Parasailing:RM 60/person leh dapat tapi kena berdua ye.

 M was here again! Pulau Mamutik ni la baru aku and Ina dapat tengok coral view cantik hasil kegigihan nak ke tengah sebab cuaca mendung and this is last island hopping kteowg

Our 2nd Island Hopping: Pulau Manukan. Kalau pandai snap shot mmg pulau ni leh dapat moments pic yang awesome.

Siapa yang minat travel tu mesti belajar sikit dapat snap shot yang menarik baru worthy percutian kowg tu. Penting travel buddy kena pandai shot pic okay!

Last shot untuk kowg, hahahah

11 Ogos 2017

1. Check out hotel (5 a.m) 

2. Pergi ke memorial park 

3.  Singgah Kinabalu park sekejap untuk bergambar. Kemudian terus ke dairy farm (anggaran 2jam dalam ni)

4. Lunch (solat zohor & asar)

5. Naik ke Ranau (fish spa Tagal Sg Moroli and hot spring)

6. Check in kiram village (rest)

7. Dinner 8.30pm

Memorial Park, kaki bukit atau entrance/exit bagi hikers yang nak daki Gunung Kinabalu

We will come again Insya Allah as hikers. This time mampu bagi support pada abang2 hikers jek

Desa Dairy Farm a.k.a New Zealand katanya

Kami berempat bersama lembu2 tenusu yang terselindung di balik kami tu 

Viram Village yang berkonsepkan garden cottage ni adalah tempat kami bermalam.

Broccoli Cabin 2 tingkat ni la kami tempat kami bermalam. Ada 2 single bed and 1 queen sized bed. 

Fish Spa Tagal Sg Moroli. Memang drama sangat kat sini, serious aku geli tengok masuk dalam sungai yang banyak ikan saiz besar. 

12 Ogos 2017

1. Check out hotel (7 a.m dan breakfast)

2. Singgah di pasar2 jual sayur/buah (just tengok2 je la apa yg dijual)

3. Turun ke arah KK akan melalui rumah terbalik, 3d muzium dan jambatan tamparuli

4. Sampai bandar KK around 1.30 p.m (lunch, solat zohor & asar)

5. Pergi ke pasar philipines 2.30pm (lebih kurang sejam setengah di sini)

6. Bergerak ke Tanjung Aru (tengok sunset sambil makan2 tepi pantai)

7. Pergi ke Suria Mall (solat maghrib & isyak), lepak food court atas sambil tengok2 pemandangan laut sementara tunggu kol 8.30 p.m

8. Bergerak ke Airport

After check out dr Kiram Village. Nak dapat best shot utk pic yang ada Gunung KK ambil awal pagi sebelum pukul 10.00 am. If terlambat, gunung terlindung awan.

Breakfast kat Sabah Tea Plantation view mengadap Gunung KK. Ktewog order tea yang bermacam jenis dengan Scone.

Nasi linopot ni orang local nyer makanan bekpes. Ktewog beli kat gerai berhampiran dengan Kiram village. Harga RM2 (nasi dijual berasingan ngan lauk sayur tu)

Rumah terbalik dan sejarah nya.

Best Shot yang leh dapat

Harga-harga bayaran: 

A) Kereta : rm250/4 (rm62.50)

B) Hotel Iskandar KK : rm200/4 (rm50)

C) Kiram village kundasang : rm150/4 (rm37.50)

D) Pulau: 

1. Yuran pintu masuk rm1

2. Jeti tax and entrance fees rm7.63

3. 1 pulau rm22, tambahan setiap satu pulau lagi rm15 (2 pulau : rm 37, 3 pulau: rm50)

4. Sewa set barang snorkeling : rm15

     * Banana boat (rm35/pax) min 3-4 orang, parasailing (rm75/pax) min 2 orang, flyfish (rm75/pax), jet ski (rm190/ unit/30mnt), sea walking (rm180/30mnt/pax)

E) Kinabalu park : rm3 

F) Dairy farm: rm5

G) Kundasang memorial park: rm2

H) Tagal Sg Moroli fish spa : rm5 (rendam kaki shja)

I) Sabah tea plantation : percuma kecuali lawatan ke kilang dikenakan bayaran rm10

J) Rumah terbalik : rm10.60 dan 3d museum : rm24.40. Kombo : rm31.80 *suggest masuk rumah terbalik shja

K) Jambatan tamparuli : free

*kalau ada masa di Ranau boleh singgah ke strawberry park Mesilau : rm3

Hopefully, sedikit sebanyak dapat bantu persediaan percutian kowg ke Kota Kinabalu nanti. Diingatkan kalau ada pasport, bawak pasport lebih convenience if tak nnti masa kat imigresen airport KK kowg akan terima resit masuk Sabah, please keep it until kowg punya flight return back ke semenanjung tau kene return balik that resit to imigresen kaunter.

Have a safe journey? >_<

For Fun: 10 Tanda Kalau Anda Tergolong Dalam Orang Ber-IQ Tinggi

Aku terjumpa ni masa tengah scroll FB aku. Meh tgk aku ni tergolong tak dalam golongan ni sebab setiap kali buat IQ test aku selalu dapat tinggi, orang keliling aku pon cakap benda yang sama, siap suruk masuk clever girl lagi. Sorry to say, IQ tinggi tp EQ rendah pon tak awesome gak, kene seimbang.

OK meh tgk kalau betul aku ada tanda2 orang IQ tinggi ke idok, hehehe:

1)Suka tersenyum sendirian

Yang ni mmg ak selalu buat sebab aku ni jenis mudah terhibur dengan gelagat orang sekeliling. Just by looking their behaviour pon aku dah terhibur.

2)Mudah untuk merasa bosan

Yang ni mmg ak tak leh elakkan, walupun aku cepat rasa bosan tapi aku sentiasa adakan pelan kedua, ketiga dan seterusnya utk elakkan aku rasa bosan. Bukan susah pon, dengar music, melukis, tgk movie, on internet, main game and writing blog of course. Kalau cpt rasa bosan ngan orang biasanya aku akan elakkan jumpa orang yang membosankan tu, hahahha

3)Tidak suka jadi terkenal

Hurm, yang ni pon betul gak. Tapi,orang lain yang suka buat aku terkenal sebab aku pon tak tau apa tarikan aku yang buat orang lain suka men'terkenal'kan aku. I cant blame my aura though

4) Suka tidur lewat malam

Up until my Degree, waktu tidur ak mesti 10-11 mlm la paling lewat. Lebih daripada waktu tu, kalau masih group discussion or meeting masih hold lg, aku dah mula tunjuk perasaan. mungkin sebab guna otak overdosed waktu siang, so I really need to rest at that time. After degree bila sambung phd, mmg ssh nak tido ikut usual time, tp bile otak aku dah penat, aku terus tido tak kisah la kul bpe skali pon. Bahayanya kalau aku dah penat sangat and tgh drive, mungkin aku leh terlelap. Dah 2 kali happen tp Allah panjangkan nyawa aku untuk tersedar sebelum crashed. Alhamdulillah.

5) Dilihat aneh

yang ni aku tak leh nak jawab sebab aneh ni adalah terma yang bergantung pada orang. Yang aku tahu, aku ni sedikit berlainan dari orang normal. I just cant be just normal. Cara aku fikir len dari normal people, sbb tu kadang orang selalu anggap aku degil and always want to win. (my bad, mungkin cara aku expressed kan sesuatu tu lain kot)

6) Confident level yang tinggi

Bagi aku confident adalah pakaian yang paling penting dalam mencerminkan diri ko in and out. That's it. Sebab tu walaupun aku dalam keadaan nervous untuk buat presentation or interview, people always see me as confident person, that's the secret!

7)Sukar untuk menghargai orang lain

Nope. Aku jenis orang yang sangat mudah appreciate orang lain. Tapi aku susah untuk compliment orang lain unless orang tersebut betul2 inspired aku.

8)Sukar untuk dipengaruhi.

Aku jenis pendengar tapi agak sukar untuk terima apa yang didengar bulat2 lantas sukar untuk orang pengaruhi. Sebab tu orang kata aku ni keras kepala la keras hati la. it's so lay, as long as aku tak susahkan orang and I am happy, i am just perfectly fine with it

9) Suka bercakap bersendirian

Yes, I have kind of this habit.Kalau tak bercakap secara verbally, otak aku sentiasa ligat berkata-kata. Even my body pon tak terkejar dengan kepantas otak aku berkata2, haish 😆

10) Berbicara dalam bahasa mudah

I prefer to say so. Tapi orang keliling tak semua yang mudah faham apa yang aku cuba sampai kan. Hanya a few of people that I can count, ccan easily understand what I am going to say without elaborate more. Sebab tu tak semua orang yang aku boleh cakap lama dan panjang. 

Jadi adakah aku orang yang ber"IQ" tinggi? 

As I said before, this is just for fun. 

Seimbang kan IQ and EQ yang penting kan, baru leh jadi orang minda kelas pertama!

6)

Choices in Life That You Will Never Regret

You might be agree with me about the choices in life that you will never regret. "Live to the fullest", people say:

⇒ Express your real feelings even if you are scared or uncomfortable

⇒ Stop trying to change the significant people in your life. Instead, accept and love them as they are

⇒ Acknowledge mistakes and ask for forgiveness

⇒ When something you working on is not working out, try to talk with other people, don't keep by yourself. Different people, different thoughts, approaches and outcomes

⇒ Give away the clothes you haven't worn in the last year

⇒ Stop gossiping about others

⇒ Come home from work early to spend time with your family. Have conversation with them please

⇒ Do the things you've been dreaming about for years

⇒ Learn a new skill every year

⇒ Give a warm smile and a dollar to the homeless guy on the street (even if you aren't sure how the dollar will be spent)

⇒ Let go of a relationship that is draining you or causing heartache

⇒ Learn to meditate and practice meditation regularly (reciting Al-Quran is one of the best meditation)

⇒ Go to bed earlier and get up earlier

⇒ Tell the truth even when it is embarrassing or difficult for you

⇒ Say "I Love You" esp to your family or lover or partner every single day

⇒ Let go of grudges and anger as quickly as possible and be quick to forgive

⇒ Take the job you love, even if it pays you less

⇒ Be appropriately honest with the love one (family, children and closed friend)
⇒ Spend less on material things so can afford more experiences
⇒ Take a stand for something you know is right, even if it's unpopular
⇒ Allow yourself to be silly, goofy and carefree
⇒ Care less about what others think of you
⇒ Take a few moments every day to acknowledge and reflect on the good in your life
⇒ Say YES when you mean YES and NO when you mean NO
⇒ Plan in advance for something fun to do on the weekend
⇒ Plan and take the trip when you need one
⇒ Spend time with people in the generation behind you and learn from them
⇒ Say YES when someone needs your time, support or a helping hand. Remember now it's his/her, some other time it might be you
⇒ Don't stop playing, it make your youth and happy
⇒ Don't argue about politics or religion
⇒ Accept failure as a step in learning rather than an end result or life sentence
⇒ Clean dishes and keep your kitchen clean before you go to the bed
⇒ Learn to enjoy your own company

(compilation of my preference and satisfaction, it might be different to yours. But most of the listed above you will come to agree with me ^__^

Reason I hate to watch news and read paper!

Assalammualaikum and Happy peaceful day, people!

There was one long duration time that I avoided myself to watch news or read papers because there were negative issues that happening around compared to the positive one and they were too overwhelmed for me to accept. I still want to believe our world still are safe for us to stay regardless those war attacks, inhumanity among people, bad lifestyles, vandalism and the lists go on and on. I just don't want to feel insecure about our future and be too judgemental about other people too. I still hope, believe and pray that good people and positive vibes are spreading around in this critical time no matter what happen. 

Alhamdulillah, now I am still adjusting myself to be realistic on this matter and I can see what there are a lot of great people are fighting on this inhumane and insane behaviour. Although I try to adapt to follow the current news but I cant help myself to sigh (sigh more often till I felt I turned old faster) when it come to negative news, not to mention how the other people commented or reacted on that issues, so unprofessional. Well, this is life. bad things happen sometime especially when you let your guard down. 

"Send out your good vibes today, The world needs them!"

Peace upon you, people!

Salam Lebaran Syawal 2017

Assalammualaikum dan Salam Aidil Fitri, semua!

Jernihkan diri dengan zikrullah,

Sucikan pekerti dengan syukrulillah,

Cerahkan jiwa dengan cinta Warrahmah,

Serikan diri dengan senyuman terindah,

Seiring dengan Hari Raya Aidil Fitri,

Mohon Maaf zahir dan batin,

Andai mulut terkasar bicara,

Andai perilaku tersilap caturan,

0-0,

Taqoballahu Minna Wa Minkum,

Minal Aidzin Wal Faidzin

Syawal kali kedua sambut tanpa arwah ibu. Sememangnya ketiadaan beliau amat dirasai oleh seluruh ahli keluarga yang dekat atau yang jauh kerana beliau penyambung ukhwah keluarga, tetapi kehidupan perlu diteruskan bagi yang masih hidup dan apa yang arwah ibu buat perlu diteruskan demi kebaikan semua. Al-fatihah buat arwah ibu dan ahli keluarga yang telah pergi meninggal kita. 

 

 Raya ke-empat baru dapat bergambar semua ada kecuali abg ipar

Ayah, sibs and anak2 buah

 

Wefie ngan ayah skali

Theme Raya 2017

"Complete the incomplete"

Notes: There is so many things that I finally realized that happening around what it takes to make things work especially for Raya celebration. It is like a small piece but definitely complete the jigsaw puzzles. I will tell briefly in other entry, Insha Allah 😊✌🏻.

I am born INDEPENDENT at Heart

Assalammualaikum and a very good evening people!

Did you know that independence in not a wish that is granted. It is something that you are born with. Being independent is far more than simply decisive, strong-headed, and able to manage livelihood at a young age. Independent are those who don’t allow anyone else (but themselves) to ride their minds. 

If you are the rider of your own mind. you might agree with me those related listing points that you are born independent at heart:

1. Your tastes never influenced by the others
2. You make your own mistakes and hold no regrets 
3. You earn your daily bread out of what you want to do, not out of what the society wants you to do
4. You dream travelling the world on your on terms and money
5. When people try to manipulate your thought systems, you listen and be like "I don't care!"
6. You take the fall without worrying about the aftermath
7. You stand by your own opinion
8. Somehow, it annoys you a little when somebody helps you without even asking you
9. You are a fine observer
10. You always have opinions, but express them only to those you feel are deserving your thoughts (TOTALLY AGREED)
11. You never show off how independent you are!
12. Even when your plan backfire, you consider them advantageous
13. You respect yourself immensely because you know it is You who makes you
14. You see the world through the eyes of your mind which make you think differently than others
15. Praises dont always make you dance, and criticisms dont weigh down your wings
16. Sometimes your strong headedness worries your parents and people who care for you (I am working on this one too to make them dont worry much about me by telling my whereabouts)
17. You dont abide by worldly rules, you function by your thoughts
18. You know how to say "no"
19. You are selective about your relationships
20. You are strong and realistic
21. You are not comfortable being with the needy people
22. You are cool being your own

Being highly independent can scare some people away, but you are not callous or mean, you just know how to get the things you want and deserve. What is so wrong about that?

Pardon us if we are wrong with attitude because we do listen >_<

Undescribed Feeling

Assalammualaikum dan Salam Sejahtera !

Sekejap dah seminggu umat Islam menunaikan ibadah berpuasa. Bila imbas berpuasa zaman kanak-kanak dan zaman dewasa ni ternyata banyak yang berbeza. Kalau dulu mmg seronok, bila kita kanak-kanak kalau berpuasa mesti disogokkan oleh parent makanan kegemaran terhidang depan mata sebagai pembakar semangat untuk kita berpuasa penuh tetapi itu semua bukan lagi yang sesuatu yang kita nanti-nantikan sebagai pembakar semangat bila tiba bulan Ramadhan bila kita menginjak dewasa iaitu ganjaran pahala. Alhamdulillah!

Semalam aku berkesempatan berbuka di masjid berhampiran rumah sahabat aku selepas dia jemput aku beriftar bersama dia kebetulan di masjid berdekatan beliau menjemput Imam daripada Makkah dan Madinah untuk mengimamkan solat terawih dan memberi tazkirah di masjid tersebut. Difahamkan bahawa jemputan Imam daripada luar merupakan program tahunan di masjid tersebut dan menurut beliau, kebiasaannya imam dari Makkah ni bacaan surah dalam solat pendek tetapi bacaan doa panjang. . Sedikit kelainan dalam majlis2 iftar yang aku attend sebelum ni biasanya tazkirah disampaikan oleh Imam dalam BM tetapi kali ni imam sampaikan dalam native language beliau (arab) dan dialih bahasakan dalam BM oleh imam tempatan yang fasih dalam berbahasa arab. Walupun tazkirah yang disampaikan pendek tetapi padat dan penuh 'deep'.

Tapi apa yang aku nak highlight dekat sini adalah sesuatu perasaan yang meruntunkan hati dan syahdu timbul sewaktu bacaan doa imam tersebut selepas solat. Aku rasa kowg pon pernah lalui pengalaman macam ni kan. Betapa besarnya hikmah yang Allah berikan pada aku waktu tu sedangkan aku jauh sekali memahami bahasa arab walhal aku ambil arab sewaktu aku bersekolah agama  di Johor (sekolah agama sebelah pagi atau petang sebelum atau selepas sekolah keb), hanya beberapa perkataan yang aku faham dimana maknanya biasa aku baca dalam doa harian.

Betapa untungnya orang2 middle east yang yang menjadikan bahasa Al-Quran sebagai native language mereka, mudah untuk mereka mendalami setiap apa yang dibacakan dalam solat, Al-Quran serta hadis. Aku cuba tahan air mata yang bergenang di hujung kelopak mata bagaimanapun tertewas tumpah juga akhirnya sehingga sedu-sedan akibat cubaan menahan air mata tadi. Ajaibnya, dalam solat dan doa, kefahaman kita bersatu walupun berasal dari berlainan bangsa, bahasa dan warna kulit, semua mengharapkan keredhaan terhadap pencipta yang Esa.

~tamat~

I am Both

I am a cheerful person,
But there is time I cant control my grumpy facial when I had a bad day

I am independent,
but when something happen out of capable, I called my father or other to help me out

I am fearless,
but there are times I am afraid of cockroaches and annelidas

I am impartial,
but sometime I can help myself to be judgemental when it involved people that I cared

I am optimistic,
but there was time that I felt down due to my negative thoughts

I am intelligent,
but not all the times I can used my intelligence to solve problems

what I am trying to say is...

Because I am Human. human being is not perfect,
Allah is!

-m, a traveler on her own destiny-

Au Revoir

Assalammualaikum and happy weekend, people!

I realized that I am bad at parting with other people especially when it comes to people that I love or comfortable with. This week I made an unexpected the expected decision to quit my services as tutor in 2 tuition centres where I've been working since 2012. I've been expecting to quit as a tutor this year at those tuition centres but I didn't expect that I will be quitting this soon :'(. 

I didn't plan to tell the owner, one of the tuition centre after discussing about the coming intensive class during school break, but may be it's Allah planning for me that suddenly I blurted out the matter to her. I can see the unpleasant and sad looking from her about that unforeseen matter. Yes, we are quite comfortable with each other when it related about working. Same reaction cannot be avoided to the other owner of the tuition centre (both husband and wife) when I told them yesterday. Obviously, I know their feeling. It has been 5 years, we have been very comfortable with each other, not much to be complaint about my performance during my services and they have been good to me since then. They wish that I am doing great in my future undertakings. As usual, I dont have much to say and that's me. My silence is my hideous feeling to show my expression as usual.

But, decision had been made. I have decide to move on with my life line. I cant stay for too long at stagnant or comfort phase, that what I am till now. I keep on moving. I need to learn and explore many things in my journey, that's the way I know myself and the world better. It is just not about me, it is all about everything that crossing path in my life that called destiny. Everything in my life is so meaningful to me, including the journey of 5 year experiences as a tutor at that two tuition centres. Thank you for the experiences and the memories. Till we meet again!

 

"See you when I see you"

It's my Birthday again

Assalammualaikum and Happy Monday, peeps!

I am so blessed that this year my birthday (13th of May) was fall in between of Nisfu Syaaban  (12th of May) and Mother's day (14th of May). I wanna thanked to all those birthday wishes, duas, treats and presents that I cant expressed just with the words to say them. May Allah blessed you all and ease everything for you all, Amin! 

As for me for my birthday, I am not looking for any of birthday suprises, presents or treats. It is just enough to be remembered by close family, relatives and friends who are meant so much to me. As the age keep added up, I am thankful to Allah to give chance to live another day in this world, to have room of improvement on my faith as a muslim, to serve better for myself, family, people that meant so much to me and other people as well, Insha Allah. 

But the most important thing when my birthday come, it makes me reminded of the most person that I missed in this world (my late mom) who have struggled to give me a breech birth and for every second of my heart beats, I owed you. This is what birthday meant for me, it's my late mom celebration too. But, Allah love her more as He took her away from me. Nothing stays except Him. 

The best moments when it come to my birthday, I can spend time with people I love as they put a lots of effort just to celebrate my bithday. Thank you, Guys! Love you all.

Appreciation that just not enough to be expressed just by words

Although it is just a bday wishes songs, it meant a lot to me

And thank you for all these. It might be not captured in this videos but it always stay in my memories lane

May Allah blessed all of us.

Stay strong, wise and happy!!

Pesan Arwah Ibu: Bila duduk dengan orang Lain

Arwah ibu pernah pesan kalau hidup berdikari,

Kena pandai jaga diri,

Jangan sampai orang benci,

Arwah ibu pernah pesan walau duduk ramai pun satu rumah,

Kena sentiasa bersih dan tak berkecah,

Jangan beritahu satu dunia, "aku duduk ramai orang satu rumah",

sebab selipar kat luar bersepah.

Arwah ibu pernah pesan,

kalau buat kerja rumah tu biar sama-sama,

Kena ada common sense dan ada timbang rasa,

benda tu tak perlu belajar sampai ambil kelas semata-mata,

Arwah ibu pernah pesan,

kalau pinjam barang orang kena minta izin,

dah bagi pinjam kena pandai jaga sehingga brg dipulangkan.

  Sekadar peringatan bersama kalau duduk menyewa bersama tidak kira sesama kawan, keluarga atau orang asing sebab kekadang kita tak berani menegur takut terasa hati. Jadilah orang yang bertimbang rasa ya! Peace >_<

~Tamat~

A weekend of Engagement

My past weekend was very hectic specifically occupied with family vacation and 2 engagement events that special to my life.

**My Friend, May got hitched (29th April 2017)**

I knew her since 2012 during my early phD study at first as postgraduates student (very common for us to use the same lab) and then turn into friendship due to have same interest to get fit and unexpectedly became close as good friends ( a bunch of 5 girls called ourselves 5 budak hitam). 

And unexpectedly it turned out that she was the 1st one who got hitched although she's the youngest among 5 of us. Seriously, it happened so fast. This is the prove of Qadha and Qadar Allah, it happens at the right time, so perfect and beautiful moment. After gone through pains and bad experiences with wrong persons, she worth enough to meet the best man that stand for her every single little time. I am really happy for her and I dont have any reason for not to attend her engagement day to witness Allah's miraculous (although I have a tight schedule to fit in between family vacation and my friend's happy day).

We roughly designed the mini pelamin set for the event. That was my handwriting on the screen board, artistic right >_<

My gorgeous and beautiful girlfriend that got hitched, it's May!

and this is a picture 5 of us (Lima Budak Hitam was named after our tanned looked after our vacation in Krabi Island last year). We only managed to get this best shot since Ina (2 from the right) was real photographer for the event and we are pretty busy doing errands.

 and give chance for me to snap my OOTD for the event

~the end~

 

**My little cousin now become a real gentleman, (1st May 2017)**

 

He was the first male cousin in my late mother's side who was a step further from the other to become a real gentleman, although the eldest one is my little brother (malay called it 'pecah telur'), salute and great job cousin. After tahlil and doa selamat recital a day before we with almost 10 cars delegation to propose the lady of my cousin's heart in Buloh Kasap, Segamat from Pedas Negeri Sembilan, a very long journey and I learnt many new Negeri Sembilan's customs ('adat') did by our ancestors since this is the first time propose a girl, thus we request our elders to have the conversation for our representative to discuss the details of the next step. Islam is religion of ease and simple but I can see our ancestors' customs that make it difficult some how, but it worth to experience those though. 

 

My twin cousin (Khuzainie and Khuzairie), My lil brother and Angah Lotfan (same series generation)

 

 My family photo after reaching the location

We are sisters

Dulang girls get ready

My beloved aunt with her future daughter in law after pull on the ring

Future husband and wife, may Allah ease the way..Amin

Congratulation, cousin!

OOTD for the event (please tahan muntah)

cheese >_< ok now can vommit hehehe

~the end~

Below are 7 etiquettes of seeking spouse in Islam

by Samana Siddiqui

1. Ask yourself: Why am I getting married?

Marriage is a commitment and relationship that starts in this Dunya (world) and will continue Insha Allah in Paradise together

2. Ask yourself: what am I looking for in a spouse.

Abu Hurairah related that the Prophet said: “Men choose women for four reasons: for their money, for their rank, for their beauty and for their religion, but marry one who is religious and you will succeed” (Bukhari, Muslim).

This of course, applies to women as well.

3. If you're looking for a spouse lower your gaze.

This may seem like a contradiction, but it's not. Looking for a spouse who has the right qualities and whom you are physically attracted to does not mean throwing out the obligation to lower the gaze for both sexes.

“Tell the believing men to lower their gaze and be modest. That is purer for them. Lo! Allah is aware of what they do” (Quran 24:30).

4. Get someone to help

Marriage is not something to throw yourself into all by yourself. Getting the help of someone, especially parents, relatives, an Imam, and/or respected and trustworthy members of the Muslim community to either look for the right spouse or initiate and participate in a communication process is very important.

Involving others, by the way, does not mean signing over your right to say yes or no to a marriage proposal. It simply increases the likelihood of finding out important information about a prospective partner in a way that maintains rules of Islamic modesty (i.e. not meeting alone, see next point).

Getting that third party involved also helps verify if the person you are interested in is decent, honest and respectful. This person(s) often checks out references, asks about the individual's character and behavior, and looks out for your best interest in general.

5. Always ask for references

This is also where your “third party” comes in handy. Not only will they be able to be your reference. They can also check out a prospective mate's references.

A reference can include an Imam who knows the brother who proposed to you, a sister who knows the woman you may want to marry well, a family friend, a boss, a co-worker, and/or business partner.

A note about honesty and references: the people you ask may know something not very nice about your prospective spouse. Remind them that if they reveal this information, they would not be backbiting from the Islamic perspective. In fact, in the case of seeking marriage, complete information should be given about an individual, both good and bad.

6. When you meet, don't be alone

The Prophet said: “Whenever a man is alone with a woman the Shaytan makes a third” (Tirmidhi).

He also advised men: “Not one of you should meet a woman alone unless she is accompanied by a relative within the prohibited degrees” (Bukhari, Muslim)

7. When you speak, be businesslike and to the point.

The purpose of meeting and talking to each other must also remain within Islamic guidelines. That means no flirtatious speech of a sexual nature on either side.

Hope this could help you guys to find your future zauj or zaujah that bring the best in you and partner to the road of Jannah, Insya Allah.

Klinik dan Aku

Assalammualaikum dan a very Good Afternoon, peeks!

Pagi tadi, aku pergi Klinik Kesihatan Seri Kembangan sebab nak check telinga aku since last Saturday waktu aku swimming telinga masuk air. Since then, pendengaran aku terganggu. Dah la dengan ada majlis keluarga, konfem orang cakap aku sombong sebab panggil2 tak bersahut, padahal mmg xdengar sebab telinga bdengung jek. Dah satu kerja aku dah kena explain kat orang, "kalau nak cakap or panggil ke, cakap kuat sikit sbb telinga problem" 😅😅. Dah tu kalau berbual, aku kurang respon dari kebiasaan sbb xdengar butir2 perbualan sudahnya aku banyak menyengih jek. Nampak x sshnya bila Allah tarik nikmat tu. Paling x menahan, bila Tadarrus Al-Quran tu mmg plg terkesan sbb xdengar bacaan ko tu betul ke tak, sudahnya asyik merepeat jek bacaan sbb x konfiden. Tu yang buat aku nekad ke klinik utk check up. Normally if swimming telinga masuk air, it will take only the most pon 2 hari jek back to normal hearing. So mmbr suggest g check takut ada infection walupun tak de sakit or telinga berair.

 

So, aku decide utk pergi klinik kerajaan sebab lama na tak visit. Boleh buat observation for their services dan ground observation utk diri sendiri since pagi ni tak de hal yang penting nak kejar. Overall the services were good and fast for gov clinic and hospital. Urusan keselurhan aku dari ambil no, pendaftaran, basic check-up like body temperature and bp, tunggu masuk utk check by doc only take 1 hr and 40 mins. Mgkin tunggu ubat skali will take less than 2 hrs procedures. Alhamdulillah,  xde infection kat telinga, Dr kata bersih even ear boogey pon clean. Dr kata mungkin it took longer for my ear back to normal functioning. Dr just suggestion kan utk kurangkan keselesaan tu pergi farmasi utk ear drop. Case settled.

There was something I want to share kepada sesiapa yang baca blog aku ni, please apply cuti and follow ur parent bila them all go to clinic or hospital walau atas urusan ambil unat sekalipun. Sedih and sebak bila aku nampak sowg chinese aunt sorong wheel chair husband dia untuk buat appointment check up, terkocoh2 tolak wheel chair dengan nak buat urusan semua. Salute kat that old chinese aunt, tak merungut pon. Hati aku rentan tgk scene tu, menitik gak la air mata aku. Perlahan2 aku seka takut orang lain perasan, walupun nampak tough tapi hati aku tisu humanity ni. Tapi rakyat Malaysia ni masih ada yang prihatin, sowang middle-aged indian woman tolong chinese aunt td sebelum aku sempat hulurkan bantuan. Mungkin that indian woman tu nampak chinese aunt td perlukan bantuan. 

Aku percaya, what comes around goes around. Please, spend time teman parent kita g klinic, hospital or apa2 la urusan yang dowg kena buat yang melibatkan beratur, menunggu tu. Kudrat dowg tak kuat mana pun, keupayaan deria pon tak sesihat orang muda. Lagi satu, kalau wife tu mengandung buat check up, please yang suami2 tu apply cuti temankan jugak. Rezeki kan Allah yang bagi. Dowg mengandung zuriat kowg tu. 

***Be considerate and kind pada orang lain tak kira mana kita berada***

Ni plak aku nak ceritakan kisah aku dan klinik. Career as a Doctor mmg impian aku sejak kecik lagi. So, mula duduk boarding school kalau selagi berpeluang jumpa Doc aku akan pergi, sebab aku suka interview Doc yang rawat aku tu tanya pasal career as a doctor, qualification and all those things related to it. Ak jarang fallen sick, ada time tu aku buat2 sakit mata la, cirit la jadi ada peluang keluar asrama visit Doc. Aku budak MRSM, based on trial SPM aku, aku di offer utk buat fast track preparation untuk buat medical ke Ireland that time. Tapi aku tolak sebab parent aku cakap too early and better masuk matriculation dulu (biasalah parent kan insecure lain macam nak2 kena antar anak kesayangan dowg ni ke overC). Waktu tu aku dapat rasakan yang ibu aku kalau leh nak aku jadi cikgu, so dia indirectly bgtau yang dia tak setuju dengan bdg doctor ni. 

Bila admitted to matric, aku punya excited utk jadi Doc ni dah berkurangan atas satu sebab. Rata2 aku tanya pengalaman Doctor yang aku interview, semua cakap kena rajin baca, per day they have to memorize details reference book more than 10 pages, effort pulak 200% weh kena letak. Satu bahana yang mmg since kecik aku tak leh nak cope, baca buku! Kalau program nilam tu pilih buku yang plg nipis, berwarna dan bergambar untuk tarik minat ak membaca. Novel mmg haram aku nak baca la dulu. Macam mana aku belajar? Frankly speaking, aku fokus 100% kat kelas or lecture hall. Fokus aku mmg dasat sampai orang sebelah cakap ngan aku pon aku tak perasan walupun aku respon kat dowg that time. Mmg payah nak tengok aku buat revision kat rumah atau bilik. Sebab tu Allah jadikan setiap benda hidup tu seimbang imbalan dia. Subhanallah! Walaupun Allah jadikan aku boleh la dikatakan sedikit cerdik, tapi aku jenis malas  nak ulangkaji. Kalau kowg tanya aku, aku salute orang2 yang rajin sbb rajin leh jadi pandai dapat lebih sikit dari orang yang cerdik ni. Ok, nak dijadikan cerita disebabkan itu aku make up mind pilih career len, not a doctor walupun result matriculation aku lps untuk apply as a doctor ( bkn 4 flat ye 😂). Kebetulan, waktu tu PM kita Pak Lah naikkan sektor pertanian, so aku pikir byk peluang kerjaya dalam bidang tu plus my biology teacher suggest jadi la Doctor Pokok, kerjaya yang susah mengikut perkiraan beliau (masa tu lebih berupa cabaran beliau utk aku). Sudahnya, aku apply Sains Pertanian di UPM as my first choice masa apply UPU utk degree aku followed by bidang education in Math, Bio and Sains dalam pelbagai pilihan universiti tempatan. Padahal, tak pernah tersenarai dalam pilihan career waktu kecik aku dulu. And here I am still stucked in this field.

**lanjutan cerita pasal aku**

Tetiba semalam aku terdetik dalam kotak fikiran aku nak jadi doktor medic sebab aku nak buat volunteer work kat mana2 camp refugees atau mana2 country (keep on moving depend on keperluan services dalam volunteer tersebut). Nampak macam menarik. So, is medic lah sebenarnya jalan takdir career ak? Sebab skunk ni field aku ni pon seem ssh untuk aku kecapi like something is not in place in my life journey. Too much uncertainties and the road seem blurred in my career path. Aku just keep on moving fwd dengan apa depan mata berserta back- up plan dan tawakkal semestinya. I am born to be a fearless. I am very intriguing to know what my life lead to, may Allah ease my journey. Amin.

**the end of the sharing** 

Persediaan Ramadhan 2017

Assalammualaikum dan salam akhir Rejab!

Dalam sedar tak sedar, rejab pon nak melabuhkan tirai memberi laluan kepada Syaaban menjelang sebelum Ramadhan. Dah habis ganti puasa? If tak yakin dah ganti tu, bolehlah niat ganti puasa selitkan sekali puasa sunat, 2 in 1 dapat pahala (Soft and self reminder untuk diri sendiri juga >_<)

Aku memang tak sabar tunggu kedatangan Ramadhan sebab terasa yang malam dia 'hidup' di Malaysia ni dalam kebanyakan bulan Islam. Mungkin bagi masyarakat kat Malaysia ni, malam Ramdhan dah dikatakan 'hidup' dan meriah tapi bila aku berkongsi pengalaman dengan sahabat penduduk Bumi Iraq (if tak silap), dia bandingkan masih sepi bagi dia berbanding di tanah kelahiran beliau, MasyaAllah, kalau diberi keizinan dapat ke Asia Timur pada bulan Ramadhan dapat merasai sendiri pengalaman tersebut mungkin sesuatu nikmat yang besar.

Aku bersyukur dalam kesibukan duniawi aku sendiri, aku masih diberi peluang untuk mengisi sedikit masa bersama sahabat-sahabat sekeliling aku untuk menyemarakkan lagi semangat kedatangan Ramadhan. Terima kasih buat sahabat Bilik Siswazah 8 (Kak Malisa, Enio, Lia, Khunaw dan nana) atas idea bersama untuk sama-sama bertilawah Al-Quran bermula minggu kedua bulan Rejab sebelum solat Zuhur berjemaah dengan misi khatam Al-Quran 30 juzuk sebelum Ramadhan (sebagai langkah persediaan) dengan 1 juzuk bacaan setiap hari, setiap orang membaca 2 muka surat secara bergilir-gilir. Melalui pembacaan ini, kita dapat tingkatkan lagi bacaan tajwid dan berbincang tentang perkara-perkara berkaitan dengan ayat-ayat Al-Quran yang dibaca. Seronok dan rasa rugi kalau terlepas join bacaan tilawah ni.Jadi, aku akan pastikan tengahari sebelum waktu Zuhur aku dah berada di fakulti. Misi kami, khatam 2 kali sepanjang bulan Ramadhan. Tiada istilah malu dengan pembacaan masing-masing sebab dalam proses belajar perlu telus dan ikhlas.

Hari ni aku belajar lagi sesuatu yang baru yang buat aku terbuka minda. Dalam urusan pembelian Al-Quran, kita sebagai pembeli buat pembayaran dengan penjual naskhah Al-Quran sebagai Hadiah kerana belian barangan bermaksud barang tersebut mempunyai nilai, sedangkan ayat-ayat Al-Quran nilainya tak ternilai. Dan jangan adakan sebarang tawar-menawar dalam urusan tersebut. Perkara yang mungkin kecil tapi mempunyai nilai pengajaran yang tinggi yang kita pun tak terfikir.

Mungkin pada masa akan datang aku akan berkongsi lagi sesuatu yang baru aku pelajari daripada pengalaman persediaan Ramadhan kali ni melalui pembacaan tilawah Al-Quran secara berjemaah ni.

Selamat beramal dan sentiasa istiqamah dalam tingkatkan iman kita 

^_^

Salam Akhir Rejab

The faces of Me

The Japanese say you have 3 faces

The 1st face:

You show to the world

The 2nd face:

You show to your close friends and family

The 3rd face:

You never show anyone,

The truest reflection of who you are..

But for me, I showed all my faces to everyone in this world because that made who I am, I am being myself, no copyrighted!

The normal me almost the time..

 

Me when I let myself to sweat on..

 

 

Me when I exposed to food because I love food..

 

Me when I put on make up

 

Me with different hijab style (hijabista😉)

 

Me when I love to put on my cap or hat

 

 

Me when I let my shades or glasses on

 

    

Not including me making faces..

(I just realized i didnt have them in my collection because I deleted them after posted it on my social media 😂😂)

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What ever I have my faces on, that's always my real me with different feel and emotion,

I am not afraid to expressed them in front of the people. Dont worry if people dont like you, because we also dont like some people. It's okay. At least you know the real people around you 👍🏻👍🏻.

Express yourself to the world, let them know the real you!