"I am a chap, now!"

It's almost 5 months he has been under my care.
Being a great and a loyal companion, buddy and roomate to me!

I still remember vividly 5 months ago or specifically I can tell that it was 23rd of Oct when we 1st time met, took place nearby my tuition centre building. Cut it short, after my class, we were heading to Mr. G's car and we found that those little two were waiting at next to Mr. G's car. And that was the beginning of Joshua+Dottie+Me's friendship!

This was the 1st night, Joshua and Dottie spent in my room. It has been destined that we met each other coincidentally that night in which I didn't prepare at all to adopt them. Thank to my floormates for their big help in guiding me to look after the kittens.

The picture when Joshua was 5 months earlier!

Notes: Dottie (Joshua's little sis died right after the accident with the car 5 days after being adopted! R.I.P, Dottie!

5 months later...

As usual, every morning I will bring him out, put him in the bag and get into the car, then drive to Recreational Park in College 10, UPM to brisk walk. While I did my brisk walk, I left him in the car (about 40 minutes).

After that, I drove to SS to bought some stuffs. Below, were the usual actions that he did while I was driving. And he looked very very cute, though that put a smile and laugh on me! Hahahaa

Changing the spot, sat on my lap!

This is his favourite spot!

See, I told you! Tu belum tengok lagi when he feel the breeze of the air that slapping on his face. He was too deep to feel it. Muka heaven gila!

This is the sign when he was excited. Try to guess what was catching his attention? Khusyuk gila mengusha kan? Hiks

The target spot (the yellow circling), the female cats! NO WONDER la mengusha sampai tahap macam nak makan. Kalau jantan tu, jantan jugak! I thought, I will be enough for him.

The conversation took place in the car

Me: Do you like her?

Josh: No, I was just watching you know. I haven't seen this new girls before.

Me: Aiyak, Don't try to make fuss here. Just go and introduce yourself if you like her.

Josh: Hello, why should I? They are not even my taste.

Me: Wushooo, demanding! What, do you think you are super hot to demand. I think I have to buy you a mirror for yourself. 

Joshua: Okay, let's go back. Nothing to see at all.

Me: Guys... (remind me of someone).. sebijik ko tau!

After reached our room, he was like.....

and like this...

and this...

which is I found it a little bit disturbing that force me to make a conversation over him again. Obviously, I know what he was thinking. You know, the symptom of falling in love at the first sight show significantly on him which was he tried to deny.

Me: What was you thinking?
Josh: Nothing. I just...no..nothing at all
Me: Do you still thinking about the girls?
Josh: I don't know. I just feel something weird going on with me. I can't stop thinking about them. What is happening to me?
Me: When you doing something, nothing was going right, isn't it? All that fill your mind was them, isn't it?
Josh: hurm..Yup!
Me: Huhhhhh, that was the sign!
Josh: Sign? What sign?
Me: Fall in love at first sight and now the was that make you don't feel right coz you were feeling regret not to approach them! which is for me PADAN MUKA!
Josh: I don't think so!
Me: Try to deny, the more you deny, the more the closest to the facts they were.
Josh: Oh damn it! I am a chap now!
Me: Yes, you are a man!
Josh: Please make me one!
Me: Learn to be a man. first!
Josh: How?
Me: I'm not a man. Ask your father! Hahahaha
Josh: #@%**!^%)*&

Please let me walk in my world and make me a man!

Unseek Journey

I love to travel,
Either short or long distance,
It is fun to see the world in whole bigger picture instead of extracting one part,
and you will find the view on those picture are totally different,
Aside from that, the experiences you have are priceless,
and meeting new people to enlarge your networking is another part of the stories,
Life seems to be more appeal!

Once, I have a dream to travel alone,
and I have Australia in that picture,
I don't know precisely why must be that country,
It just pop up in my mind,
May be because I have seen my pic's friend when she's on the vacation over there,
Must be the view that captivated me,
May be because of the mix culture that grip my attention,
where many Malaysian stay over there as permanent resident or co-workers,
which added up my curiosity what were the ground cause that amused those people to stay there,
 and I going to find out the answer one day, yes! one day

~(finally I realized because it has be destined for me to meet Matlutfi and Anwar Hadi over there rather than in Malaysia, perhaps! LOLz)

"Travel helps to reset your current path for a bit,
remind you that life is bigger than what you've been seeing everyday,
and make your problems seem small compare to it,
So, g travel! G supermarket guna jalan jauh"-Taka (via Matlutfi)

That quote is veritable,
Now, I came round why I always use different routes to go to the regular place I went,
Because I love to travel and discover something new!
To see the same place from other side of view at different angles,
and I would says,
Same goes to people,
People's views on the same things would be different!

So, what's the wait. Start your step to travel!
Why make your life complicated when there is always simple step to begin with!
 Happy discovering and travelling, people. Be wise and happy.

 Nape nak g jauh ke Jepun cari bunga sakura, kat Malaysia pon ada scene bunga Sakura gugur jugak. Heehehe, cantik kan!

Eyes' twitching!

Assalammualaikum and a very good morning, dear peeps!

Lately, I'm too busy with my on going research and tuition stuff. This is life, you need to balance your life! Exhausted but I'm happy, though. But, there was something that really disturbing myself. My upper left eyelid keep twitching since a past few weeks! Sometimes, it happen frequently and make me annoyed with it. I always thought that it was some kind of eyes medical problem or disease, you know! I searched the symptom via the internet and I found these:

a) Science explaination

The doctor called it myokmyia, the rippling muscle contractions on the eyelid triggered by stress, tiredness, eye strain, alcohol, nutrient imbalance, allergies, caffeine and dry eyes. In my case, it was not a serious and a medical problem. Get a enough sleep could be a help. Thank you, Allah. 

b) Old time beliefs

Old people said that was a sign if your eyes keep twitching:

- upper part right eyelid: You really wanna meet a far away people

- lower part right eye : You gonna hear a good news

- upper part right eyelid: Someone from a far really wanna meet you in person!

- lower part left eye: You gonna hear a bad news

So, like in my case, someone from a far really wanna meet me in person. I wonder who was it, hahaha! 

Science vs old time beliefs, which one could you take? I have experienced the eyes' twitching many times and most of them were signs that lies in old time beliefs. May be it was a coincidence to happen that way. I tried to link how can eyes' twitching can be related to those old time beliefs and in some cases, science also can not explain it, though! However, we can not totally believed that was a sign cause it will affect our faith. Not all people are really gifted to have an intuition or we called it sixth sense where we can feel something before it happens. So, when it happen, I cast  a "Selawat to our prophet" and rub with my hand on the twitching.

It was up to you guys to decide and believe as long as it will not affect our faith towards Allah. Stay happy, peeps! Love yourself and take care.

Just for gag: I feel annoyed with the twitching eyes because when I have conversation in person, I like to talk eyes to eyes, afraid that they mistakenly taken me blinking my eyes to flirt. My bad, it is by far my nature behaviour. Apologies!

Tetamu Allah

Assalammualaikum dan salam sejahtera, kalian!

Alhamdulillah, kehidupan aku dari semasa ke semasa baik, tenang dan bermakna. Aku sangat bersyukur bertanamkan niat untuk mencari cinta yang hakiki terhadap yang satu dipermudahkan jalannya.  Didampingi dengan orang-orang yang banyak ilmu dan baik pegangan agamanya serta berkongsi pengalaman  dan pendapat sesama mereka adalah satu kelebihan buat diri aku. Memang aku akui susah untuk melakukan perubahan lebih-lebih lagi untuk ke arah kebaikan. Yang penting niat bersertakan usaha dan istiqamah walaupun prosesnya lambat. 

Memandangkan sekarang musim orang menunaikan umrah, jadi ada beberapa kenalan yang berkesempatan menjadi tetamu Allah di sana. Pemergian mereka selama 2 minggu lebih memberikan pengalaman yang sangat bermakna dan berharga untuk mereka jadikan titipan kongsian bersama. Bercerita sejarah, keadaan dan pengalaman mereka di sana sudah boleh menghibakan perasaan, apatah lagi jika benar-benar berada di sana yang lagi betul-betul dekat denganmu, Ya Allah. Subhannallah!

Insha Allah, dengan rezeki dan keizinan dariMu, persiapkanlah aku untuk menjadi tetamumu, Ya Allah! Bukan lagi negara Korea yang menjadi destinasi impian dalam list aku. 

Terima kasih buat sahabat-sahabat yang telah secara spesifik dan peribadi telah mendoakan aku di Jabal Rahmah (tempat pertemuan antara Nabi Adam A.S. dan Hawa selepas diturunkan ke dunia dari Syurga) untuk permudahkan jodoh aku. Aku amat terharu! Semoga doa kalian memberi satu kekuatan lagi terhadap kehidupan aku. Amin!

I need Time of My Own

Assalammualaikum and Happy Tuesday, dear peeps!

7 days every week,

out of 4 days, 

Despite of spending time for myself,

I have another commitment that prosecute me to do another part time job,

as a tuition teacher (tutor),

A huge responsibility that I have to bear on my shoulder, 

To teach and guide them,

Though it was hard,

and complaining is a must coz I'm human,

but most of the time I'll try to carry the responsibility whole-heartedly,

Hoping that they can feel my sincerity through my teaching,

May the knowledge that being vessel to them will be blessed,

So that they can practice what they preach,

and wish that all my deeds will get paid in hereafter

However...I am still a human being

I wish I have time of my own,

Though, it is momentary, 

It is important and precious to me,

The moments where I don't have to think about other people,

That I can just let my mind, body and soul doing my stuffs without worrisome of other things,

With no interference or disturbance from any angle of my circling,

Only me and doing stuffs,

The rest of the 3 days are my worth count days as my time of my own,

and that time is a vital,

That I hope it could last longer,

So that I could do things as much as I want

I have been thinking,

Time is like the coin of your life,

It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how will it being spend,

Be careful lest you let the other spend it for you

Obviously it is the one we want the most,

but yet the one that we use worst

Time ripen all things,

and it revealed everything,

Indeed, time is the father of the truth

 

Just for sharing: Today, I have been telling white lies said that I had a fever as an excuse to attend my tuition class tonight. Sorry my beloved students. I don't want to push myself doing something that I do not put heart on it. I just need a little rest. White or black, big or small, lies are lies! I will be punish for this. Please have a mercy on me, Allah! 

Happy and peaceful day without lies, peeps!

Sesuatu yang mendamaikan

Assalammualaikum dan Salam Hari Rabu, kalian!

Tengahari tadi aku telah melakukan sesuatu yang memelikkan. Belum pernah aku pergi kedai runcit, beli majalah. I repeat, "MAJALAH" bukan KOMIK, ye! At first, aku dah ambil Majalah Wanita, Fauziah Gous as cover girl dia but then I found Mingguan Wanita keluaran 8-14 Mac, Nelydia dan Raja Ema lebih intriguing. Seperti mana kepantasan aku berjalan, memandu, berfikir, begitu juga dengan tangan aku mempunyai skil yang sama untuk grab majalah tersebut dengan sepantas kilat tanpa membelek isi kadungan majalah tersebut.  Memang mudah bagi aku untuk buat keputusan bila melibatkan pemilihan antara 2 majalah tersebut, cover yang menarik dan gerak hati! 

Belek punya belek, aku jumpa sesuatu yang best dalam satu petikan cerpen dari keluaran majalah tersebut dimana kata-kata bait yang disampaikan sangat menyejukkan hati. Tak perlu kata-kata romantis yang berbunga-bunga untuk buatkan jiwa terbuai oleh pengucapannya. Penyampaian yang cukup jelas dan tegas disamping penuh simbolik.

    Dania, telah banyak yang ingin melamarku, orang yang datang ke rumah adalah orang-orang istimewa. Umumnya memiliki ketua di tanah kelahiran  mereka. Namun ada yang datang dari luar pulau, hanya untuk mendaftarkan diri sebagau mertuaku.  
   Dania, mereka sangat cantik, namun aku hanya mahu menjadi imammu. Aku hanya ingin menemanimu, tak hanya di dunia ini, Insha Allah hingga akhirat nanti.
  Lamaranku yang ditolak, tidak membuatku putus asa memilikimu. Rasa itu semakin menggebu-gebu bukan kerana kecantikan wajahmu yang berhasil meluluhkan hatiku. Namun kecantikan hatimu yang belum aku temukan. Semoga penilaianku tentangmu tidak berlebihan. Penilaian ini aku buat, bukan untuk merayumu, agar kamu mahu menjadi isteriku melainkan sebagai wujud kekagumanku atas karya ciptaan Allah, yang telah mengenalkanku denganmu.
    Dania, setelah pulang menimba ilmu di Mesir aku akan melamarmu kembali, tunggulah kehadiranku. Aku berharap lamaranku yang kedua beiring redha Allah dan kita sah menjadi suami-isteri, menjadi imam dan makmum yang saling berlumba meraih restu illahi!                  

-Faruq Zaein-

Aku akui, sememangnya bukan semua orang tertulis takdirnya untuk bertemu dengan pasangannya yang telah ditentukan dalam Lauh Mahfuz itu indah dan mudah. Ada yang berkali putus cinta dan kecewa yang pada awalnya menyangka perhubungan itu kekal sehingga diakad nikahkan, tanpa diduga putus dipertengahan. Ada juga yang bercinta jarak jauh 3-5 tahun lamanya, siapa sangka jodohnya adalah sahabat baik yang setia bersama susah dan senang. Beruntunglah sekiranya sudah ditetapkan olehNya bahawa cinta pertamanya adalah jodoh untuknya. Barakallah! Allah mempunya rahsia yang besar yang Dia tentukan untuk hamba-hambaNya. Sesungguhnya, Dialah Maha Mengetahui akan semua perkara. Dia memberi apa yang hambaNya lebih perlukan bukan yang hambaNya minta.

Kenapa perlu bersedih wahai hati sekiranya jodoh yang ditetapkan untukmu tiba lewat?

Bukankah orang-orang yang bersabar itu telah dijanjikan oleh Allah besar ganjarannya...

Allah telah menetapkan sesuatu yang lebih baik setimpal dengan kesabaran hambaNYa untuk jodohnya,

Mungkin masa itu tiba lewat supaya kita dapat memperbaiki kelemahan diri kita,

Mungkin masa itu tiba lewat untuk pasangan kita juga memperbaiki diri mereka untuk menjadi yang terbaik utuk kita,

Mungkin masa itu tiba lewat untuk kita lebih kenali Allah dan diri kita,

Kehidupan di Bumi Allah itu ternyata indah perjalanannya sekiranya kita betul-betul cinta pada Allah,

Sesungguhnya cinta Allah itu lebih azali haknya dan tidak pernah mengecewakan hamba-hambaNya.

Allah itu Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani zatnya.

..."dan ingatlah bahawa tidak pernah Allah turunkan sesuatu ujian itu diluar kemampuan hamba-hambaNYa"

  

Semoga Allah pelihara hati, perasaan dan diri ini untuk orang yang benar-benar berhak ke atas hambamu ini. Insha Allah, kita sama-sama perbaiki diri kita dan istiqamah dalam melakukan perubahan yang baik kerana Allah Taala.

Exquisite way Of Affection

I have this precious friend of mine,
One of the good that I can't keep losing,
The one that gave me some valuable experience in life,
In  a way to learn the journey of my life heading to,
Unexpectedly being able to open my heart for him,
Accepted him for the way he was,
Without conscious, freely, willingly to share and care,
In return doing it with no doubt to put an expectation,
For this relationship would lead to,
All I know,
This pure feeling always bestowed as a gift,
From the Almighty Allah SWT,
Thank you to let me feel and experienced it,
Though, both of us might not meant to be destined together,
Indeed, Allah you know the best for us,
The secret lies behind it always intriguing and beautiful,
Thus, I put all my heart and soul to you, Allah!
Please accept me as one of your lover,
So that, I will become a better person,
before the right time and the right person to come,
to claim that he is the true owner of the left ribs of mine,
I will be lenient, Insha Allah!

This precious friend of mine,
He seems to have a hard time now,
Rather than be busy and stress with his research and part time income,
As he is a hardworking, diligent, highly motivated guy and always give the best shot,
This kind of things will never be difficulty for him,
That side of him which I respected the most,
But deep down inside,
The tiredness and restlessness showed in face told me otherwise,
Just looking at him that way somehow hurt my feeling,
The feel like he was hurting himself,
I wish I could help and share the burden that he carried around in his mind,
So at least, it could lighten it and put him in ease,
As a friend, I just can't ignore the situation he have been through,
I know that he was too decisive and serious about something,
Something that not randomly to share with anyone,
Something that determine his future life with someone,
Obviously,
I know he want to give the best impression in front of this someone when they meet up,
To look good and best in many ways,
May be he was thinking deeply on this matter that he shouldn't at the 1st place,
To reach the expectation of someone,
Without realize, he was loosing his trueself,
The simple truth is if someone like you or otherwise,
He/She will accepted the way you are including your flaws,
Indeed, everyone wanna look good in front of the person he/she like,
but never lose your true-self and become another person.
to make up to the expectation.

To my dear precious friend of mine,
You are already shine the way you are,
People like you because you are being you all the time,
Not pretending, stand and be true what you are thinking and believe,
Didn't care less about people judging about you,
The way you smile, it came from the bottom of your heart,
Pure, genuine and sincere,
That's the charming part of you,
Though, your heart looked tough,
but I know you are a little sensitive guy,
you always forget and never dragged the sensitive issue far,
You manage to get back to the real you briskly,
That is you that I know,
which make you even cuter in a way,
You might not realize this,
but the people close and stick around you know well of you.

Though I cannot reach my heart and hand towards you,
Helping you in handy passing through your hard time,
Like I always do is pray that your mind, heart and soul will come in peace,
So that, everything you work out come clean and ease as you wish,
Visually, you might think that I don't even aware of your circumstances,
Truly I did,
but I know you can handle it very well, dear buddy!
If you can't manage it, you know where to find me.

When I cared for someone (my family and dear friends),
It didn't need me to stick around them and asked how you being doing all the time,
It's enough for me to see from a far how they being doing,
Because I am a person with a big hearts,
My hearts was tender and soft,
That's why I can't show off my affectionate towards people randomly,
I don't want what I feel being caught easily,
I live a simple life and I am not selfish,
What make people I cared happy,
That is my happiness,
 and That's is the way how I show my affection,
Exquisite yet mysterious!

"The best love is the one that makes you a better person, 

without changing you into someone other than yourself"