A Silent Grief of a Man called a Father

Assalammualaikum and a very good afternoon, peeps!

On last 5th January it turned out that it has been 2 years since my late mom left us back to her Creator, Allah SWT and it also meant that my father had been a single dad for 2 years too.

And all this while I realized that being a man and a father was never been easy especially when we live in a society that upholding the stereotype that "men don't cry" and "men are strong". It must be very difficult to be a man in grief since there is no way tears to be shed. 

I haven't seen my father shed his tear once in my life even the day when my mom passed away. I know that he just suppressed his sadness for his children. It is so unfair for this kind of stereotype because a man is human too who has feeling to be sad. Cry doesn't make you weak but it is also a way to be stronger. Don't worry dad even you cry in front of us, it will never lessen the fact that We love you and You are our 1st hero! 

I wrote this for a man called a father especially for my only dad

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A dad hurts too,

but I never see the tears that my dad cried,

Not once even when my mom died,

I know his heart broken too,

He tried to hold it together and be strong,

Even though his world gone wrong,

He goes through the days doing what he supposed to do,

Unknowingly that his piece of heart has been ripped away too,

So when he's alone he lets out his pain,

If I could imagined,

I want his tears falling like a heavy rain,

Like his world has crashed in around him

So that way my dad will feel the weigh of the burden around him become less,

and he can be stronger again.

Dad..

Although I didn't call or text you everyday,

It doesn't mean that I don't love or care for you,

I knew I took you for granted,

When you were the first one to call/text me,

I am sorry , dad..

I wish you know that,

It is just that I have get used to be this independent girl since I was young,

However I also trying hard to be a lovely girl that can be pampered by you,

Even it is not even close but since I'm only the girl that not married yet,

I want to have this golden opportunity to be a daddy's girl.

Dad,

I want you to know that you are the source of a my quiet strength,

Although you are not here with me,

Your presence will always be missed,

You are my very own guardian angel,

that always be with me till the end,

I love you dad.