I am born INDEPENDENT at Heart

Assalammualaikum and a very good evening people!

Did you know that independence in not a wish that is granted. It is something that you are born with. Being independent is far more than simply decisive, strong-headed, and able to manage livelihood at a young age. Independent are those who don’t allow anyone else (but themselves) to ride their minds. 

If you are the rider of your own mind. you might agree with me those related listing points that you are born independent at heart:

1. Your tastes never influenced by the others
2. You make your own mistakes and hold no regrets 
3. You earn your daily bread out of what you want to do, not out of what the society wants you to do
4. You dream travelling the world on your on terms and money
5. When people try to manipulate your thought systems, you listen and be like "I don't care!"
6. You take the fall without worrying about the aftermath
7. You stand by your own opinion
8. Somehow, it annoys you a little when somebody helps you without even asking you
9. You are a fine observer
10. You always have opinions, but express them only to those you feel are deserving your thoughts (TOTALLY AGREED)
11. You never show off how independent you are!
12. Even when your plan backfire, you consider them advantageous
13. You respect yourself immensely because you know it is You who makes you
14. You see the world through the eyes of your mind which make you think differently than others
15. Praises dont always make you dance, and criticisms dont weigh down your wings
16. Sometimes your strong headedness worries your parents and people who care for you (I am working on this one too to make them dont worry much about me by telling my whereabouts)
17. You dont abide by worldly rules, you function by your thoughts
18. You know how to say "no"
19. You are selective about your relationships
20. You are strong and realistic
21. You are not comfortable being with the needy people
22. You are cool being your own

Being highly independent can scare some people away, but you are not callous or mean, you just know how to get the things you want and deserve. What is so wrong about that?

Pardon us if we are wrong with attitude because we do listen >_<

Undescribed Feeling

Assalammualaikum dan Salam Sejahtera !

Sekejap dah seminggu umat Islam menunaikan ibadah berpuasa. Bila imbas berpuasa zaman kanak-kanak dan zaman dewasa ni ternyata banyak yang berbeza. Kalau dulu mmg seronok, bila kita kanak-kanak kalau berpuasa mesti disogokkan oleh parent makanan kegemaran terhidang depan mata sebagai pembakar semangat untuk kita berpuasa penuh tetapi itu semua bukan lagi yang sesuatu yang kita nanti-nantikan sebagai pembakar semangat bila tiba bulan Ramadhan bila kita menginjak dewasa iaitu ganjaran pahala. Alhamdulillah!

Semalam aku berkesempatan berbuka di masjid berhampiran rumah sahabat aku selepas dia jemput aku beriftar bersama dia kebetulan di masjid berdekatan beliau menjemput Imam daripada Makkah dan Madinah untuk mengimamkan solat terawih dan memberi tazkirah di masjid tersebut. Difahamkan bahawa jemputan Imam daripada luar merupakan program tahunan di masjid tersebut dan menurut beliau, kebiasaannya imam dari Makkah ni bacaan surah dalam solat pendek tetapi bacaan doa panjang. . Sedikit kelainan dalam majlis2 iftar yang aku attend sebelum ni biasanya tazkirah disampaikan oleh Imam dalam BM tetapi kali ni imam sampaikan dalam native language beliau (arab) dan dialih bahasakan dalam BM oleh imam tempatan yang fasih dalam berbahasa arab. Walupun tazkirah yang disampaikan pendek tetapi padat dan penuh 'deep'.

Tapi apa yang aku nak highlight dekat sini adalah sesuatu perasaan yang meruntunkan hati dan syahdu timbul sewaktu bacaan doa imam tersebut selepas solat. Aku rasa kowg pon pernah lalui pengalaman macam ni kan. Betapa besarnya hikmah yang Allah berikan pada aku waktu tu sedangkan aku jauh sekali memahami bahasa arab walhal aku ambil arab sewaktu aku bersekolah agama  di Johor (sekolah agama sebelah pagi atau petang sebelum atau selepas sekolah keb), hanya beberapa perkataan yang aku faham dimana maknanya biasa aku baca dalam doa harian.

Betapa untungnya orang2 middle east yang yang menjadikan bahasa Al-Quran sebagai native language mereka, mudah untuk mereka mendalami setiap apa yang dibacakan dalam solat, Al-Quran serta hadis. Aku cuba tahan air mata yang bergenang di hujung kelopak mata bagaimanapun tertewas tumpah juga akhirnya sehingga sedu-sedan akibat cubaan menahan air mata tadi. Ajaibnya, dalam solat dan doa, kefahaman kita bersatu walupun berasal dari berlainan bangsa, bahasa dan warna kulit, semua mengharapkan keredhaan terhadap pencipta yang Esa.

~tamat~

I am Both

I am a cheerful person,
But there is time I cant control my grumpy facial when I had a bad day

I am independent,
but when something happen out of capable, I called my father or other to help me out

I am fearless,
but there are times I am afraid of cockroaches and annelidas

I am impartial,
but sometime I can help myself to be judgemental when it involved people that I cared

I am optimistic,
but there was time that I felt down due to my negative thoughts

I am intelligent,
but not all the times I can used my intelligence to solve problems

what I am trying to say is...

Because I am Human. human being is not perfect,
Allah is!

-m, a traveler on her own destiny-