Nervousness Get Down! Phew..

Assalammualaikum & Good Morning Peeps...~_____^ (sorry, i can't stop smiling, hehe)

Weather broadcasting said this morning will be raining and mostly cloudy in UPM Serdang. Whatever it said doesn't seem to bother me...It's always be a splendid morning to me. What's making me feel like this? Hahaha, the story begin below..

This morning, my 1st day sit for my Comprehensive Exam (it's a compulsive exam for postgrad student like me b4 6th sem, 2 part:1) writing 2) oral). For today, i will be a writing part. The questions will be given to you by your supervisory commitee. Thus, the level of difficulty of the question depend on them too (hahaha, that's why you must have a wisdom and act smart in selecting your supervisory commitee-check everything-just joking-JANGAN TIRU AKSI INI DI RUMAH). 

OK Continued.  I've been reminded by my Prof on last Friday for this purpose via email (aren't we cool, just get connected via email).After the moment i read the email, my nervousness started to show off themselves. Then, the thermodynamic stage 3 syndrome take place (as usually, applied chemistry form 5 here). I get used for this term syndrome when my mind mixed up (kecelaruan minda), it happened when there were too many things and thoughts kept in your limited space memory, they messed up in "there" due to a brownian movement and finally, they got stucked in "there" because i don't know which one do i have to burst out first. At that point, the symptom (eg:peevoid-no-stop) and signs (eg: mood changes) appeared. This is what we called a panic attack. Normally, this sudden attack will attack person who not really ready or well-prepared to this kind situation. Like i do because i'm a last minute person who strongly be holder of this quote, "Nothing makes a person more productive and efficient than the last minute". Ergo, to get down my nervous, i'll put a side that matter and doing some activity like watching movie, strolling and hanging out with your friends. When it didn't turned out well, i prefer to pray and read Quran.

Blah..blah..blah...read and read more journals for my CE's preparation.. blah..blah..blah..

(INTERMISSION)

Last night, i went to my bed early so that i could take a good rest to fight for my CE tomorrow. Debaran dan kerisauan tetap ada sampai termasuk dalam mimpi..mmg cayalah..What happen in that dream seem to be cool!! I didn't expected what was i dreamt just happen to be a good sign for me today, hehehe. I reached at my Prof's door ealier than she asked me, b4 8 a.m. Starting greetings with a broad smile from her (she's very kind and pro, u know..actually, she already knew i get nervous easily, same ol' day). She said i can take and do it at home, hand in the answer by Friday (mean, i have 3++ days to submit the answer). Due to her concern (bile balik kampung?), she asked me just send it via email...i repeat via EMAIL again..hehe. I feel like i want to hug her at that time..why? because:

1) No need to work hard on my handwriting, just typing using my lappy..yeah
2) Time provided is longer than i expected (from her previous student experience, he needs to complete within 2 day and only 8 hrs/day provided)...but this time, i'm not gonna to delay answer the question because dah nk raya..nk shopping.. heheh
3) the questions seem to be straight-forward (a massage from her: i don't contribute those question, it's all coming from the other co-supervisor of yours, so answer them in detail and perfect. Her expectation towards always high..sigh~so i'm gonna kill them, yeah!)

Ok, i should end my entry here. Gotta kill the answer for those question. My oral CE will be after raya celebration and it is highly dependable on what i'm going to shoot for the answer. So, guys..see u soon and wish me all the best. I'm gonna fight for me, my parent, my loyal BFF and friends, the farmers, citizen and my country..because i am truly MALAYSIAN..opss not yet, belum daftar undi lagi.. hehe

JUST FOR GAG: Pagi ni, 2 kali asyik repair parking..nervous punya pasal la ni.. hehehe

Time Blaja DuLu dan kiNi

Ini Kisah penglipur lara si dara extremely kental jelajah mencari ilmu dr selatan ke tengah2 benua tanah melayu...tak puas dgn dgree further kasi up lagi satu level...tapi di tengah2 pencarian, si dara lantas tersedar perbedaaan yang signifikan antara blaja time degree dan kini walhal kesinambungan pengajian di lubuk yang sama..apakah keputusan si dara? meneruskan jelajahnya atau berhenti di separuh jalan?...ikuti pengembaraan si dara kental time blaja dulu dan kini..

1) 1st Time Registration

Kalu dulu, masa nk register, tak cukup ngan family...sanak sedara & 3 keturunan generasi belah ibu ayah pon berduyun2 nk ikut menghantar walupon kene apply cuti kerja (excited ^_^ sbb cucu sulung ni masuk univerct ni, haha)..Tp sekarang, nk cukupkan korum seat kete depan pon susah, terpaksa register keseorangan tanpa di temani sape2 melainkan foreigner2 belaka.

2) Online register Subjek

Ingat lagi kalu dulu seminggu sebelum register subjek utk sem depan, punyelah kecoh & haru biru sbb time ni la student2 baru la sibuk cari PA masing2 (personal academic bukan personal assistant a.k.a papa mama angkat la ni, jumpe PA sekali satu sem, mmg 'bertuah' la sungguh anak2 skunk ni) sbb nk swuh buka online registration course tu.. kalu lambat, nasib badan la tak dpt masuk feveret class tuh.. tu yang ade sampai failed tuh disebabkan hati tak rela diajar oleh lecturer yang tak feveret (no no no, blaja ilhkas kerana ilmu bukan lecturer k-cm terkene kat btg idung sndiri jek)...tp kini, walupon dah inform sebulan awal utk register subjek pon boleh lupe.. ye la tak payah nk jumpe PA dulu or berebut2 masuk klas mana2,  sbb klas sure tak kan pnuh punya la... haaaaaaaa, tu yang kdg2 sampai kene byr denda sbb register lewat tu.. RM 100 melayang wooo, lps tu sanggup plak tu wat surat anta ke sini ke sana.. (tak ke leceh namanya tuh)..

3) Ruang lingkup Kawan

Kalu dulu, ruang lingkup kawan mmg luas sikit la, al-mklumla, join aktiviti sana sini, mesti networking besar punya! Tak payah bg contoh jauh2 la. Coursemate pon dah cukup ramai, pastu ader plak geng2 kan.. set2 utara la, set2 johor la, set2 klate la (budak laki2 slalu streotaip ckp budak pompuan suke puak2, utk mkluman kowg nyer tanggapan salah k, namanyer pon pompuan, it's more secure kalu jln ramai2 k, haha.. da more da merrier). Skunk ni, bukan nk ckp kawan tu tak ramai, tp kalu nk simplify dalam matematikal over yr, rate die turun la. Antara sebab-sebab nyer adalah terlampau busy ngan keje2 research hingga kurang masa nk mencari kawan2 baru (member lama yang sama2 sambung blaja pon susah nk jumpe. Jumpe kat tepi-tepi tak kira la tepi jln ke, tepi kelas ke, tepi kafe ke dah kire untung leh terserempak)

4) Grouping Vs Individuality

Kalu dulu buat sume bende nk berkumpulan. Kalau seorang dr geng tau, mesti info pas kat member2 len. Bukan setakat info, kerja berkumpulan sangat la praktikal masa wat degree dulu.. nak ngelat boleh lagik sbb in the end, dapat mark sama gak (ni spesis2 yang tak sedar dek untung la ni, berani masuk group aku, awal2 aku dah tendang dr group ak, hahaha). Bila berkerja kumpulan yang bestnyer banyak idea, so leh la top up mana2 kekurangan (tp ni kalu crita bg group yang komited, kalu yang  kurang komited nyer, mmg TAK la jawabnyer segala serbi). Kini, semua serba serbi kena buat alone termasuk la kalu nk mkn. (malas nk crita lebey, sadis kalau bab-bab mkn ni..)

Setakat ini sahaja Kisah penglipur lara si dara extremely kental jelajah mencari ilmu dr selatan ke tengah2 benua tanah melayu. Akhirnya beliau tetap meneruskan perjuangan yang tidak asing baginya demi diri, keluarga dan sahabat2 yang tidak putus memberi dorongan dan kepercayaan kepada beliau. Setiap kepayahan datangnya kesenangan di hari kelak. Berbekalkan doa, setiap langkah beliau dipermudahkan. Kehidupan tetap perlu diteruskan. Setiap kegagalan akan mematangkan diri dalam membuat keputusan dan pertimbangan. The more failures the closer you get to know your capabilities and yourself.